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Can't hold by sow-ay
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Hello deviant friends, it's been a while ! (that's weird to introduce like that with the picture I just posted)

I sometimes come back just to add tons of awesomeness to my favourites.
I'm sorry if I almost never post here, I'm a bit lost between tumblr, tapastic shitbook & co. I'll try to update my dev' more often.

I'm still working the most I can and that becomes harder and harder to keep faith in my projects when you have a family that keep criticizing & saying "no-one cares about your useless stuff". I got convinced that I'm just a shit. But I still go on and try to be positive. (I keep hearing it's the most important). I made a new website and was quite proud to  success making it all by my own ( it's here : forsakenstar.com ), I've even organized a "VIP Opening Night" that meant a lot to me since Forsaken Star is my most important & personal project. I've learnt a lot, had great fun in hard time with that project. And only 4 friends come. Half of them haven't even answered to my text. And no internet friend seemed to care enough to come.
This is when the shadow came back more stronger than ever. Sometimes, I just want to shut off all my internet accounts forever and disappear...

I found a job that has nothing to do with design. I'm starting tomorrow, and I hope it'll be great.
Work is the best thing to fill up your mind with something other than doubts and all those bad things.
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(the one that comes back after years)
OMG ! Deviantart changed so much !!! Watch feed and all that now.
  • Listening to: Deftones
  • Reading: Inferno
  • Watching: The Flash
  • Playing: Pokemon
  • Eating: Monster Munch
  • Drinking: Coke (how can I do as many things at once??)
Youhou, j'ai encoré été taggué, cette fois c'est par une smily cuir moustache > :iconmymyartzone:

Les règles
*je les censure parce que je n'aime pas tagguer des gens et que mes seuls amis dev' ont déjà été taggués...*

Pseudonyme actif ?
Sow Ay (qui se prononce "So Ouaille") (ou comme tu veux en fait, je m'en fiche)

Pourquoi ce pseudo ?
En fait mes amis m'ont toujours appelé Sow, le Ay s'est ajouté quand j'ai créée mon compte facebook et que je voulais pas mettre mon vrai nom complet. Enfin, ça c'est la vraie version.
Pour le style, je dis que ça fait "So Why", pour représenter cet éternel questionnement dans ma tête.

Tu aime dessiner quoi ?

Ça dépend de l'humeur, si j'ai une envie subite de dessiner quelque chose, je le fait.. Généralement, j'ai toujours préféré faire parler mes personnages en dessin. Je préfère rester planquée derrière eux. J'ai commencé le dessin comme ça au collège. Par des mini BD (moches) pour partager des anecdotes. Ce que je fait toujours après 10 ans.
Pas mal également de personnages et fanarts quand je gagatise sur un perso après un film ou une série.
Ou si je déprime, pour tenter de retranscrire graphiquement ce que je n'arrive à dire.
Chercher aussi des idées pour mes projets Forsaken Star. J'ai beaucoup beaucoup de croquis de recherche et d'idées mais peu se concrétisent, mes idées vont beaucoup plus loin que ce que je sais faire, et c'est tellement frustrant qu'il m'arrive d'arrêter de dessiner, et même créer en général (comme je fait pas que du dessin) pendant des mois.. Seulement si on veut passer pro, freelance, il va falloir arrêter de se bloquer sur des conneries parce que les gens s'en foutent que tu sois pas d'humeur, que tu aies envie de te pendre ou quoi. Ils veulent du taf et un rendu sérieux! (putain mais dans quoi je pars, ça a plus rien à voir avec la question !!)

Tes meilleurs amis sur ton site ?
Rah, j'aime pas ces questions, j'ai pas envie de dire "toi t'es mon meilleur ami et pas toi", je veux vexer personne. (déjà que j'ai pas beaucoup d'amis)
Tu peux regarder les personnes que je watch si tu veux voir des gens ! (il faudrait déjà que quelqu'un lise ça....)

Le genre d'artistes que tu préfères ?
Les gens qui te donnent envie de te bouger le cul, qui te foutent une claque, t'inspirent et te donnent envie de créer. Et qui idéalement sont des gens humbles, modestes, partageurs de compétences. Des vraies grosses claques que j'ai prit, il y avait le clip de Gorillaz "Clint Esatwood", et mon premier vrai concert, "iynx". Hé ouais, c'est même pas du dessin ! Mais sans ça, je pense pas que je ferais mes conneries.

Le genre d'artistes que tu aimes moins ?

- Les péteux. Ceux qui pensent que 150 j'aime sur ton dessin sur facebook ça te donne une quelconque puissance. Je préfère avoir 5 gens qui me suivent mais qui me donnent l'envie de continuer plutôt que de bosser pour essayer d'avoir le plus de j'aime à chaque fois. (pour cette raison que j'ai parfois du mal avec facebook).
- Ceux qui te snobent.. Ou même des gens cools mais qui ont le défaut de prendre un ton supérieur en te parlant.
Pourtant, c'est grâce à leurs "fans" qu'ils sont ce qu'ils sont. Ils devraient savoir à quel point ça fait plaisir d'avoir une réponse ou un simple merci d'une personne dont on suit le taf...
- ceux qui demandent de partager pour des concours. Si quelqu'un aime un truc, autant qu'il partage de lui-même et pas juste pour l’appât du gain. C'est 16846352 plus motivant de voir des gens partager sur coup de cœur.
- Ceux qui sont trop doués et te dépriment.
- En fait, presque tout le monde. J'aime personne. Toi aussi d'ailleurs, je t'aime pas !

Ton perso d'anime préféré ?
Anime, ça sous-entend format cours ? Pouah.. En ce moment je délire pas mal sur les Cartoon Network, (enfin, depuis que j'ai 10 ans je délire dessus) j'ai bien envie de dire Gumball. J'aime beaucoup ce style graphique, ce mix 2D-3D-prise de vue réelle.. Ça donne la patate !
Les gens qui y bossent ont aussi des styles géniaux. (retourne s'auto lapider en s'auto traitant de naze)

Ton propre perso préféré ?
Nem (le blond dépressif aux yeux noirs), le seul qui est resté avec le temps, celui qui m'a fait créer Forsaken Star, celui qui m'a permit toutes les rencontres et la collabo avec Shaka Ponk, celui qui m'a fait ne pas abandonner le dessin...

Ton perso préféré de quelqu'un d'autre ?

404 error : too many names to fit in that journal !!


Tu prends des commandes ?
Si jamais tu viens en privé, on peut voir ça !

Tu aimes les réaliser ?
Ça dépend de la commande.. Si tu me demandes une infographie d'un plan de tous les travaux dans les villages allant de St-Merd à Arnac-La-Poste (oui, ça existe je bosse en partie pour eux) et que tu demandes un dessin de Batman en Rock Star, tu te doutes que c'est pas le même fun !
Mais si la personne éclate de joie devant le rendu, ça efface la chianteur du travail !

 Tu RP?
Oh mon Dieu ?? C'est quoi ce truc ?? c'est une secte ???? /o/
Non, à part les jeux de ma 3DS que j'attends d'acheter, je joue plus vraiment à quoi que ce soit. J'ai abandonné le jeu au profit de la musique et mes conneries créatives.

Ton plat préféré ?
Je suis pas une grosse fan de bouffe, j'ai déjà à moitié la phobie d'aller au resto.. Mais sinon, Ratatouille/pates ensemble et c'est une bonne journée.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Green Day - Lazy Bones
  • Drinking: Coke
I never post here but I still come sometimes, to check my friends art..
(by the way I invite you to come on my tumblr, blog (french) or twitter for more stuff)
I read my last journal note... And realized this is still accurate.. Seriously, Sow, what the fuck is wrong with you ???

But I've also been tagged by :iconnam-stram-gram: (hiiiiiiiii, my goood this is my first tag on dev')

RULES
1. You must post these rules.
2. Each person has to share 10 facts about themselves.
3. Answer the 10 questions asked by the person who tagged you and make up 10 questions for the 10 you tag.
4. Choose 10 people and put their icons in your journal.
5. Not something like "You are tagged if you read that".
6. You have to legitimately tag 10 people.
7. No tag-backs.
8. You can't say that you don't do tags.
9. You MUST make a journal entry! 

Ten facts about me...

1. I work for several newspapers as a graphic designer until the end of the summer And After that... Who knows ? (I don't want to think about that...)
2. I am a fucking fangirl ! On tumblr this is awful, my newsfeed is full of Cumberbatch, Hiddleston and Fassbender. *w* And Bromance ! (Cherik, Johnlock)
3. I don't know if I would still be from this world without music. Probably not.
So now I just want to help music like music helped and still helps me everyday. Music is Way more important to me than drawing or any other shit I can make. I hope I'll find inspiration someday to make a good personnal music project..
4. I am a big anxious person. And that got a lot worse those two last years. I easily can't sleep, became sociophobic, overthink and depress easily.. I'm taking meds for that. I am so sick of being bored, of not feeling able to create anything...
5. I created a clothing brand named Forsaken Star that was inspired from the depressive and ambitious character I created. And seriously, this is the thing I love the most making. Seing people wearing my tees, and being happy with is just the best thing ever. If you read this, I love so much people.
6. I didn't know what I wanted to do after my A level. I was lost and thought I would make it. But this is worse now. I regret to not have been able to go to a CG school to work for FX and motion design or to a music school.
7. I'd like to move to England for a while, to get some peace of mind.
8. People from the internet often wonder if I'm a He or a She.
9. I'm still like a kid when I'm back from the cinema. Like "YEAH, I WANT TO BE AS COOL AS HIM !!".
10. The film I am the most waiting for is Frank. This is a Comedy about Music. Musicaly that sounds great and fun, and Fassbender (see the 2.) is the main character. I've drawn tons of fanarts, even made a mask with the Frank Mask technique.


1) What is your favourite mood for drawing/creating something ?
Being sad, upset. When I just want to express something, and try to have a powerful emotionnal render. (don't know if it works for people but I don't care)
 
2) What's your favorite season ? Why ?
Autumn, people are back to school so it reminds me that I failed to all those schools. Summer's when I work the most. Oh, Summer's not that bad since work keeps my mind busy. (even if I hate my b-day on that period). Ah and also because I went to the best concerts ( and best moments of my life) during that season. But spring is cool too ! It's often when there are most of the concerts I go to. Yes, I just care about music.

3) If you could be an animal, which one would it be ?
A Dragon is a animal ? Well, maybe not a Dragon in our world since humans would kill them all... :(
But maybe a big bird or something free.

4) If you could speak perfectly a language other than your mother tongue, which would it be ?
English. (I'm doing my best)

5) In which movie would you liked to play ? What will be your role in the story ?
I'd like to play in a music film, something a bit emotionnal, without text. Playing a mystery musician.
If I would make my Forsaken Star story as movie, I'd like to have the physical to play the hero... So it would be really personnal.

6) What's your model/inspiration ? (if you have one)
Damn.. I don't know, I'd say any ambitious dreamer.. Maybe Jamie Hewlett, since he's both a musician and designer.

7) What is the biggest dream you really want to realize in your life ?
I'd like to give life to my imaginary friend, make a band with him… A crazy band that would express all that we cannot say with words since we suck at speaking. And make crazy shows with amazing visuals that would be awesome, emotionnal, and motivate people to follow their dreams too. Just imagining that... I think I'd be crying so so much behind my drums or guitar. And the bigs screens and light would keep our faces mysterious.
But that will never happen...

8) If you could be the opposite sex, how will you be ?
More myself..

9) Can you choose 3 historical character who can describe wholesale your way of thinking/acting ? Explain why.
This is getting really serious there.. Ok, I'll just take the first that come to my mind...
A dreamer : Walt Disney
An ambitious : Martin Luther King
A creative : Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

10) Which element (fire, water, air, earth) would you like to control ? (like magical powers 8D)
Damn this is hard... As I'm fangirling on Magneto, can I say metal ?
Or maybe water, to feel free underwater, or air.. I don't know..



My own questions :

1) Would you rather be a billionaire or a Dinosaur ? (poke level up)
2) If you would live in another country, which one would it be ?
3) Is there another creative style you've always wanted to try ? Which one ?
4) What is the last thing you bought and that you're proud of ?
5) If you could have the power of a superhero, which one would it be ?
6) Favourite music to listen while walking in the street ?
7) Do you have a stupid big dream you've never told anyone ? And which one ? (that will probably never happen)
8) In case of a zombie attack, you can have 3 fictionnal people in your team ? Who ?
9) Your favourite Disney movie ?
10) Your favourite Celebration ?

Tagged :
I know this is so bad to not tag people but... I don't have other friends on dev'art :(
If anybody reads this, and wants to...
Please, dev'art God, don't be mad at me, your rules are so rude.. You're freaking me out !! I'm already enough in troubles !!

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J0N-Lankry Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Merci pour le +fav ! :squee:
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Nyu-teamind Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014
Tankyouagain !(à prononcer à la française)
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sow-ay Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014   General Artist
IOuRe Ouelkome Euguène
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sow-ay Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014   General Artist
Jaack!
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Nyu-teamind Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2014
Yes miss ? You want snow ? 'u'
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sow-ay Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2014   General Artist
:)
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Nyu-teamind Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2014
merci pour le fav soso !
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sow-ay Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2014   General Artist
you're welcome ! (pour une fois que je réponds pas 3 jours après)
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